Category: 40 Days Personal Revolution

Today I got my meditation in, but just barely! Then work work work and some drama in the community we are a part of in Belize…..

Now the workday is over and I’m hoping to get a walk in, and a long weekend is a day away!

Thought it was going to be a good starting day and then some shit hit the fan and here I sit needing to start work, no meditation, no walk, no shower, in my jammies….

Hoping to recover as the day goes on.

So work was pretty nuts all day, but towards the end of the day things started to shift, and I got an evening walk in around the neighborhood…now time for dinner and start it all over again!

This Tuesday started with a meditation and some quiet time alone since I woke up early. I didn’t end up having time for a walk, because I had to get some ‘real work’ done so I could be in a training all day. I did spend some reflection time working in my planner.

Then HOLY COW a busy work day from start to finish, and even later, stopping just to eat dinner and fall in bed.

I am still working on the balance thing…

Today started out perfectly! I woke up, peed and brushed teeth, lit my candle and did a mala meditation. Then put on shoes and headed out for a walking meditation. I decided to do half the walk on the trails in the park near my house, Hammock Park. It was a great decision! I enjoyed some distance social interactions, too, saying hello to neighbors.

Back in time to get a shower and finish the dishes before work started. It really helped to start out so balanced, because next thing you know a WILD ASS storm blew in with a tornado warning and a lot of thunder that had the dog barking like crazy. And then logging into work and it seems I had a thunderstorm there as well.

The big storm has passed, and I’m on lunch break typing this. The afternoon will be jam packed with work, and my 13 new supervisees to introduce myself to!

I feel pretty checked out of the 40 days process today, despite my thinking I’d get back on track. Nevertheless, there is something to be learned in all experiences, and I’ll keep logging my experiences here. I think if I had attended the meetings or if my small group had been more engaged, I would feel more engaged. We’ll see what this week brings!

Today I had best intentions of doing meditation and a walk, but ended up being lazy when I got out of bed, and then it was time to get ready to head to mom’s. We had a lovely gathering, all of us in masks and not talking when we had to take them off to eat. Everyone stayed 6 ft or more apart except for those in same household. I really liked seeing my people, but also had some anxiety because I realize how vulnerable my parents are to this stupid virus, and I am so glad they at least are taking it seriously. We probably had the 5 most careful people in the state there!

Back home I’m still working through some online courses that are evaporating at the end of the month, trying to capture all I’ll need to be able to finish them.

I am getting a little tired of my ‘not finishing’ ways….

I signed up for Tymi’s class last night so that I wouldn’t talk myself out of it. My day started with my mala meditation, and the brain was a bit more present. I had skipped the group meeting and yoga dance party last night, and woke feeling recharged and re-engaged with the work. I’ll review the recap and do some of the journaling later.

I’m also finishing up some sewing of masks, and some work saving pieces of an online class I’ve been taking that’s going away at the end of the month. And I baked zuchinni bread! I’m just enjoying a regular weekend kind of day like normal people have!

I’ll shower and nap soon, then enjoy our Saturday night dinner. Tomorrow we see mom, Jan and Kim for our rain-date Mother’s Day BYOpicnic.

This morning I was determined to meditate and walk. If I delay at all, thinking that I’ll do it at lunch, or after work, it rarely happens. So I woke up, peed, brushed teeth and sat down for mala mediation. My brain was going a million miles an hour all over the place, but at least I had awareness about that.

Then I went out for a half hour walk/moving meditation. I tried some new streets and really focused on being aware of what was around me. At the very end, an osprey soared over my head and around some trees on either side of the street. They are so wonderful.

It’s been a busy work day, and I’m just finishing that up. Still working on balance with home/personal/work, but I don’t feel quite as crazy today.

I’m not sure I’ll make the meeting or yoga dance party tonight as I’d really kinda just like to sit with my husband and chill….

This day had nothing happen that had to do with my personal journey, but a lot of work was accomplished, and I cooked a nice dinner which is a very rare occurrence, so there’s that.

This Tuesday started off with sitting down, lighting a candle and getting ready for meditation. Only to have my phone ring with my best friend calling to catch up and reconnect. That was wonderful! She and I can talk for a week straight and not run out of things to say. I love and miss her, and look forward to when we can be face to face again.

However, by the time we closed our call, I had to hop into work, and I worked pretty much straight through til about 6pm.

I felt stronger and more balanced overall, so I’m going to call it a win for the day.

With dinner, we tried out a new show called Upload, which was pretty good and funny and thought provoking, too. I’m looking forward to more.

EQUANIMITY

Today I really wanted to focus on being/feeling balanced and less scattered. In other words – equanimity, which is this week’s theme.

I started my day with a mala meditation and meditative walk around the neighborhood. I went down some streets I hadn’t been on before, and really stayed present to the experience, drinking in all the beauty and the different ways people expressed themselves in a neighborhood of what was originally very similar houses built in the 50s and 60s. It was a beautiful morning and a beautiful way to get centered and clear for my busy day.

I worked much more productively and with an inner calm all day. That was super!

I did not find more time in my day for journaling or yoga, but I am working on focusing on what is good in my world, and not on what I’ve done WRONG.