I did my mala meditation for a start today, and feeling a little wander-ish with my time this morning. Part of me wants to ‘get to work’ and do online yoga class and meditation. Part of me wants to lay on the daybed and read and play solitaire. And part of me wants to do a little bit of yoga on my own, as recommended by my 40 days crew.
Right now, the middle option is appealing. One of my mottoes is “The truth is in the middle”. So maybe meditation with Kim and yoga with me 🙂 stay tuned…
None of that happened.
I had to drive up to Hudson to pick up my djembe drum that had been reskinned. It’s been ready awhile but I haven’t been ready to go. Today, the long drive seemed like a good idea. I did a driveway grab of my beautiful djembe, and then called my son and talked to him the whole way back. It really settled me.
When I returned, I shared this on Warrior One Facebook page:
You know, every time I come to Warrior One, in real life and virtually, I hear the message “Nothing is wrong with you” and I didn’t realize until just this week, journaling in my 40 day group and talking with the other participants, just how deeply I have failed to embrace that message.
It’s really deep and dark inside me, but the light is getting in the cracks now. The cracks that this community have chipped away in my shell.
Kim, I know this message is a foundational truth of all you’ve built, and I look forward to the day when I COMPLETELY embrace myself just the way I am, and then shine that truth out for others to see, like you all do for me now. Thank you. I love you all!
So I’m working on that…that I’m NOT wrong/in need of fixing/secretly horrible…. AND that I am on a path to be better, always, all ways.